Questions of eternal significance: What's your favorite halloween candy?

What's your favorite candy to pilfer from your kids on Halloween?

(Which I have no shame in doing, let me just say. I changed their diapers, now I get to skim off their Halloween bags. It's the mommy tax.)

My favorite candy, which I really only ever see or eat on Halloween, is these guys:
Dots. I don't know what it is about them. They always get stuck in my teeth but I love them.

I'm also a fan of the gummy lifesavers.

Now these things, on the other hand:

When we go to a house and they are handing out Almond Joys, I am secretly passing judgement. You must hate humanity if you are a house that gives these out. There is no other explanation because gross.

How about you? What candy do you look forward to eating tonight? 

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What I want you to know about a psychic connecting me with my son

What I Want You to Know is a series of reader submissions. It is an attempt to allow people to tell their personal stories, in the hopes of bringing greater compassion to the unique issues each of us face. If you would like to submit a story to this series, click here. Today’s guest post is by Seth Tearz.

Almost one year ago my 4-year-old son, Jax, died in a drowning accident. This is my story about my struggle with faith and an unexpected source that helped me believe in a heaven again.

When Jax died everything changed. I used to pray every morning in the shower. Almost every single day I’d end by asking for God’s protection for my wife and kids. I prayed the same thing on June 24th when Jax died. On June 25th, I stopped praying.

What’s the point? I was just wasting my breath. You know when your spouse gets so mad at you that they ignore you for a couple of days? That was me towards God. Except it lasted months. He was around, but I didn’t want to talk to him. I know, we live in a broken world, yadda yadda yadda. Shit happens. I didn’t care. I was beyond pissed. Now, I know there’s human element involved with life and death, and consequences occur, and it’s not all on God. I’m not discounting any of that. But if He can’t protect my kid, then what’s the point of any of this?

A few days after he died, or after the memorial service – I don’t remember which – I started to question heaven’s existence. What if there is no heaven? Will I ever see my boy again? 

I grew up in a Christian family and attended a non-denominational Christian church all of my life. I was raised to believe that you died and went to heaven if you accepted Jesus as your Lord and Savior. What if the Bible is just a book of mythological stories, and when we die, nothing happens? I felt alone. Everything I believed in before June 24th shattered like a glass bowl on the kitchen tile. Tiny shards shot every which way, and I’m walking barefoot, trying to pick up the pieces. But it hurts. I keep stepping on the shards. I’m bleeding. And I’m overwhelmed.

I read books like Heaven is For Real and 90 Minutes in Heaven. Those didn't help.

And then I found comfort in an unexpected place. I felt peace for the first time in months. Peace that I would see Jax soon and that he was still with me. Peace that he is okay and in God’s hands.


“Who here lost a young boy that drowned?” Theresa asked as she stood at the front of the stage with her platinum blonde hair and flashy disco ball-like high heels, which now function for me similarly to the green light at the end of Daisy’s dock for Gatsby.

No one answered, so she inquired again. My heart pounded. My face felt sort of numb.

“In this section, right here. Someone lost a young boy that drowned.” With her arms extended straight and parallel, she pointed at our section.

Holy shit, this is happening. Everything I wished for is happening. My wife and I raised our hands in unison. But we were five levels up from the stage, sitting in the second to last row of the theater.


Towards the end of last summer, with encouragement from a friend and a thirst for something, anything that would help me believe in heaven again, I watched an episode of Long Island Medium. For those that don’t know, the show follows a medium from Long Island, Theresa Caputo, as she helps the living communicate with loved ones that have crossed over (died).

I recorded any episode I could find on my DVR and watched alone. Whereas I was okay sobbing while soaking up some gut-wrenching episodes, my wife wasn’t ready to watch. My skepticism reminded me that this was a TV show. It’s cool to believe Caputo could really communicate with the dead and bring comfort and closure to the living, but what if it’s just all for show?

I continued to watch with an open mind, and Caputo continued to blow me away with her episodes. Her ability to bring up specific details she could never know with love and positivity while at the same time giving honor to God hooked me. A practicing Catholic, Caputo walks a curved line of traditional Christian beliefs and alternative spiritual theorem. She mixes in a typical Italian New Yorker stereotype and a charming naivety that warms the soul.

What if is this is true? Then I will see Jax again. He is walking with me. He knows my sorrow, my guilt and how much I miss him.

This show brought me peace. It gave me hope at a time when I had nothing.

About six weeks ago, our friend, who is a big fan of the show and wrote in to TLC to get us on the show for a reading, texted me that Theresa Caputo was coming to the west coast. She found available tickets at the Cerritos Center for the Performing Arts. I asked my reluctant wife if she wanted to go on June 6th, our tenth wedding anniversary. Romantic, huh? A few hours later I bought tickets at the back of the theater, the only ones left.

The theater seats 1,700 people spread across five floors with box seating that flanks the main stage. Our seats were on that fifth level, to the right of the stage if facing it and in the second to last row. Binoculars would’ve been appropriate.

The night before I spoke to Jax for about 10 minutes. Typically I cry when I talk to him, but that night I felt calm. I matter-of-factly explained what we were doing and that this woman Theresa could speak with him. I advised that there were going to be a lot of people there that wanted to speak with their passed loved ones, and that he needed to push his way to the front to reach Theresa. I asked him to be strong, because his mom and I ache to hear from him.

My wife and I picked up our friend and met my mother-in-law in Cerritos for the show. The venue, a beautiful site which I highly recommend checking out an event, was packed with middle age women, which shot my blood pressure up and required soothing deep breaths to keep from elbowing the ones that couldn’t seem to figure out that I was standing against a wall so that they wouldn’t walk in to me.

Caputo started the show praising God for her gift, explaining how she operates and curbing our expectations for the night. She told us Spirit was ready to work earlier than she expected so she got right to it.

“Who here lost a young boy that drowned?” That’s how she opened the whole freaking thing. There’s 1,697 other people in here, I’m sure she’s not just speaking to us, I thought. Then she asked that second time. What the shit? I’m stuck up here in the boonies. Short of jumping off the balcony, she wasn’t going to see us waving our hands.

Caputo moved on to other spirits communicating to her. About 45 minutes later, after moving around the lower level of the theater followed by a camera man and microphones, Spirit led her to ask who had a necklace with a thumb print. I didn’t think much of it until no one raised their hand, that I saw at least. I looked to my left and saw my mother-in-law tugging the chain around her neck. At the end was a flat charm with Jax’s thumb print. I totally forgot she had that keepsake.

What the hell is happening? Is my little boy, the first loved one to step forward, trying for a second time? Is he fighting for us? I felt helpless.

“Does anyone have an anniversary of some kind today?” Caputo inquired. Oh c’mon! My wife raised her hands, both of them. Just before the show I snacked on a sandwich in the parking lot and our friend snapped a photo of my wife and I sharing our “anniversary dinner” and posted it on Facebook. Again, no one else said it was their anniversary.

This can’t be coincidence, can it? I mean, it can, I guess. We’re showing up desperately hoping to hear from Jax. I could turn around a lot of things Caputo said that night to relate to us so that I felt better. But these three things were too specific. And NO ONE ELSE affirmed her messages.

I believe it was Jax. I have to. That’s what faith is, right? Belief that isn’t based on proof.

As far as Caputo goes, I utterly believe everything she did that night is true, real and a gift from God. It’s impossible to know much of the stuff she asked the audience as their loved ones communicated with her. She nailed the dead’s personality to a tee, knew about tattoos hidden behind clothing and detailed some horrific ways that loved ones died.

I believe it was Jax that night. I believe he made it through all of those other loved ones passed on and up to Caputo first. He knows what it means for my wife and I to hear from him. He knows how much we need it.

I have to believe. Without belief there’s no hope, and that green light at the end of Daisy’s dock fades to darkness. I lived in darkness enough over the past year. I need that light.

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#TBT: Pooping for Disney

On Thursdays I post a favorite from the archives. This is from August, 2009.

The backstory: I have been trying to potty train India for five months now. She has done really well getting the #1 part down. She hasn't had an accident in months and does really well at home and at school. The #2 though . . . not so much. I know that she has control over it, though. She doesn't really have accidents, she just waits until naptime every day when I put her in a diaper. (She is very regular). Every day for weeks now, we go through this routine where I put her in a diaper, leave the room, and come back in ten minutes later to change her poopy diaper.

Over it.

I know she has control over it, but is just refusing to go on the potty because she is a) stubborn or b) freaked out by the potty. I've been trying to strategize how to remedy the situation. I had ideas about leaving her naked on a plastic sheet during the nap, or putting a small toilet on the bed, or skipping the nap altogether for a few days. Yesterday, she did skip the nap, and by dinnertime she had a grimace and was walking a little funny. I knew she had to go #2. She peed several times, and each time I acted like a cheerleader, trying to get her to make a deposit in the toilet. She informed me that she would not be pooping in the toilet.

Until . . .


a play in one act

(inspired by true events)

A young girl is seated on the potty. Her mother is seated nearby.

MOMMY: India, why don't you try to put a poop in the potty.

INDIA: No. I don't want to.

MOMMY: You're a big girl now, and big girls go poop on the potty. Gabriella and Sharpay go poop on the potty.

INDIA: No. I don't want to.

MOMMY: If you put a poop in the potty, you can open the box with your new Tinkerbell shoes and wear them all day tomorrow.

INDIA: No. I don't want to.

MOMMY: (thinking back to India's daily dinnertime prayers thanking the Lord for her family and Disneyland) I have an idea. How about if you put a poop in the potty we can go to Disneyland?

INDIA: Disneyland????????

(cue pooping sounds)

MOMMY: (weeping tears of joy and disbelief) INDIA!!! You did it!! I'm so proud of you! Daddy, look! She did it! She went poop in the potty!

INDIA: I pooped in the potty and now I get to go to Disneyland!

JAFTA: (entering room after overhearing) What? I wanna poop and go to Disney!

Jafta physically pushes India off of potty and sits down himself. Commence forcible pushing and grunting

JAFTA: (strained) I can do it, too! I'm gonna poop, too!

MOMMY: Jafta, no. Wait, honey, stop. You don't need to . . .

JAFTA: I'm gonna poop so I can go to Disney!

MOMMY: Jafta, stop. You're gonna hurt . . .

JAFTA(grunting like a woman in childbirth) UGH! UnghErrrAUGH.

Daddy enters room, alarmed.

DADDY: Kristen, make him stop. He's gonna give himself a hernia.

KRISTEN: You mean a hemorrhoid?

DADDY: Kristen, make him stop. He's gonna give himself a hemorrhoid.

JAFTAUghhhhhGrrrrr. I can do it. I can . . .

KRISTEN: Jafta, stop!


JAFTA: Yes! I can go! I can go to Disney!

KRISTEN: Jafta, you didn't need to . . .


JAFTA: More poop! That means I get to go to even more places!

INDIA: (pushing Jafta aside) I wanna poop more! I wanna poop more!

and scene.

Guess where we're going tomorrow?

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Austin talks Invisalign (VIDEO)

This post was sponsored by Invisalign® clear aligners. My nephew and mom are receiving complimentary Invisalign treatment as they share their Invisalign journey.

It's been almost six months now since I've started documenting my nephew’s journey with Invisalign clear aligners, and he has had some incredible results! For those of you who are not familiar with Invisalign Teen®, it’s a series of nearly invisible, removable aligners that are used to gradually (and discreetly) straighten teeth. My nephew is a theater student who really wanted to have his teeth straightened, but he wanted to avoid the look of metal braces that would affect his chances at getting certain roles.

Here's a video of Austin talking about the process so far. Check out those teeth!

If you are interested in Invisalign Teen treatment, you can request more info here.

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Wednesday's Child: Meet Jaime

Every Wednesday I feature a child recently highlighted by a local Wednesday's Child newscast to share the stories of children from around the country who are waiting for a family. My hope is that this can broaden exposure for the children highlighted, but also serve as a reminder that these children represent thousands of children currently in the foster-care system. Perhaps their stories will inspire you to consider opening your home to a child needing a family. For more information and to learn about other waiting children, visit AdoptUsKids.

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