Ou pral rete avek nou.

Ou pral rete avek nou - You are going to live with us.

I've been having a discontented week. If you've been pregnant, you know that feeling when you are nearing the end, and you are just OVER the wait, and ready for the baby to be born already? Yeah, that's how I feel times two right now. I'm anxious for our baby girl to be born, but I'm also feeling a growing sense of wanting and needing Keanan home.

I know it's mostly about me, because he is perfectly happy where he is at. There were several adoptive parents and friends who visited this month, and they shared photos with me, which is such a treat. He is having fun, he is loved and well cared for. He loves jumping on the trampoline, playing with his friends, swinging, and hanging from the window bars like it's a jungle gym. He's a typical, happy kid. But I just want him home in a big way.
I got a book recently to help me learn Haitian Creole. When we started this process, I thought we would be bringing Keanan home long before he was really talking. But as it drags out, I am slowly adjusting to the idea that there might be a language barrier by the time he comes home. There is a great book that helps teach simple phrases that would come up in our situation. As I started the first chapter, I was overcome with emotion at some of the phrases:

I am your mommy

You are my son

We are so happy you are a part of our family

We love you so much

Don't be afraid

We are going to ride on an airplane

You are going to live with us

We will take good care of you

What surreal and powerful words to learn to say to my son. I look forward to the day I can say them to him SO MUCH. Sometimes it feels so far off. Sometimes it feels like a dream to think of flying on a plane with him, and landing in LA, and having him in my car, and showing him his room and his bed. I am anxious for that day to come.

PS Thank you Jess, Kim, and Pearson's for the photos.


  1. Wow, I haven't thought about the language thing. I'm crying thinking of you saying those phrases to him. How do I say, "I am your auntie?"

  2. i really hope you get to bring him home soon!!! I feel so blessed to have been a part of the kids' lives for a short time! they are all so great! praying the rest of your adoption goes quickly!!
    (ps...i look drugged or something in that pic!)

  3. That made me cry. I hope he comes home soon so your heart can be at rest. Love you.

  4. Jenn - it's "Mwen se tant ou." But I think he should call you Abuella.

    And Jessica - you look awesome!

  5. I am not at all poo-pooing your concern, but Heartline works hard to teach the kids English too ... hopefully the fact that so many of us are around speaking English will make his transition that much easier. He sat in front of me at church today and did GREAT!!!


  6. I know! They do work hard, and I know he will learn some, too. I am so thankful for that. How fun that he went to church!!

  7. Anonymous6:54 PM

    The poignancy of those phrases! I can't wait to speak those words, in Spanish, to my little girl too!

  8. hmmm, i just thought I left a comment and it didnt post...
    ANYWAY, I was saying that I hear you about the learning phrases thing. When we got back in Nov. I attempted to learn some Kreyole, but now- its just too hard. I have been deattaching myself from him and the process a little- which I hate, BUT it is just too hard otherwise (and being in a stuck office doesnt help either!)

  9. I am having crazy contractions today and I am laying down while Tanner takes a nap. As I read this I started to cry too. I am so ready for Peyton to be here in my arms, I know it must be a million times more for you. I can't wait wait to meet him and love him forever.


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